Happy Valentines Day...Especially to you baby...I love you lots...I think that's the only thing I really wanna say...Gotta go now...

xxx All Around...

Just as when I thought life couldn’t get any better. Seems like things are really starting to take place in my life. Well it’s by fucking time now!

Music class is going well…New Job coming up…so fucking excited about that one. And I’ve got a Valentine…I couldn’t ask for anything or should I say anyone better…*blushes*

So you all know about my weird phases I’m going through…So I think I wanna have a cow phase…Have no fucking idea why…But just cause like er I can…Then next I’m going to go through a duck phase, but those plastic ones…but they have to look spliff…Talking bout spliff…I’m going to have my 5th one now…So I’m pretty stoned as it is already…

So this music guy with the Production Company got back to me…Looks like we meeting for drinks next week to discuss my project…FUCKING YAY! I feel so not depressed anymore…But my boy’s not doing to well…his a bit down and I don’t know how else I can make him feel better…But we’ve promised each other that we both give our best to make him overcome it.

Another YAY, I hooked up with my old mate in New Zealand, she went with me to school, like 4 years ago and it’s amazing what a couple of years can do for a person. Anyways…Lots of things are like just happening this side…All weird and fucked up in a way.

Oh God…I feel like a shopping mall centre manager…The local mall close to where I stay…well I’m there allot…More than I thought actually…you better know this when every shop knows you and waves and greets you…Weird…I even feel like one of those famous fuckers…I’m talking so much shit I can’t believe it…My body is so relaxed and I think skin feels fucking awesome…When I smoke this shit I get so sensual and horny…LOL oops…But I just wanna touch people…I’m like a darn pussy…I mean cat…Rubbing myself up against people.

JESUS CHRIST I am stoned…I even feel like typing and really updating my journal…Seems like I need to change the colour scheme again. I just went through a orange phase…So that narrows down…I wend through the black, then the white, then the red, then green, now it’s orange…I must be fucked in my head cause I’m really liking this Westlife song.

Ok…I think that’s enough…Yeah definitely…

So Take Care…

Here I sit on my bed…Stoned as fuck, looking over at the cute boy next to me…and this on a Wednesday morning at 2.30am in the morning! Some guy just added me to MSN…mmm interesting…I feel like having tea…fuck that would be great…hehe I’m so fucked…lol…

So like I can’t really chat, cause I’ve got er..things to do…yes I can have things to do at 2.30am in the morning…*wink*

Will update soon…

*Kisses Bitches…*

x

So like much to say about nothing really…kinda feeling shitty, kinda okish er I think…but *ponders…and wonders what to say*….still the usual smoking shit loads…and feeling depro…very much actually…Oh hey…cool I gotta new lj mate…simonsayz69…*cute* smokes pot, so that puts him in my good books…Listen I’m not gonna talk shit all night and pretend to be happy..I’m not…Gonna cut the bullshit! I wish my life would fuck off…how weird…I mean fucking sweet gentle Jesus…it sucks…like er big time man…like who gives a shit really huh? Inbreed bastard take over the world…mother fuckers…well they fuck you over…Whores and bitches think they it…and Me…down as hell…

I so like gotta stop using the word ‘like’ and ‘dude’…and like ‘so’…oh and like ‘fuck’…Jesus I used like like er 27 and a half million times already…er stop…gotta go…

Later
X

So quiet, so still...but loads of shit going on...What to do with 'some' people. I think I smell nice today...*shy smile*. Just had some Mac D's...now I'm full. Think I'm gonna go rest for a while. Some good friend told me to update everyday like more than a million times...so that's what I'm tryna do...and I do have lots to say...but sometimes it's so hard to put it into words.

So like...
Erm
Later..x

Hey, just came from music class and feeling a bit er say cold and tired. I got this one piece for piano today and I have to sing it…you not gonna believe this…DON’T CRY FOR ME ARGENTINA!!! Anyways I pulled it off…so yah. I got like a shit load of e-mails in my inbox I still have to read them I just don’t have time. My eyes feel like they want to fall out…Jesus…anyways…’straight boy’ (Donavan) and I broke up on like whenever who cares…but yesterday I get a message from him ‘I’m sorry’ now what the fuck am I suppose to do? He even admitted he went a bit overboard. I haven’t spoken to Dave in like a week and it’s killing me. Dave’s the Irish guy…my real…er…ya…real…boy :S. Okie I neeeeeeed foooood. And my arse is sore.

P.S The music I'm listening to is not dedicated to 'straight boy' just for the record.

Later x

HARTSVILLE, Tenn. (AP) - Investigators described a marijuana-growing operation discovered inside a cave in Trousdale County as something out of a James Bond movie.

"It's pretty amazing what they had under there - water for irrigation, special lighting, devices to keep the humidity just right. These guys were professionals. They knew what they were doing," said District Attorney General Tommy Thompson of Hartsville.

The cave was beneath a stylish A-frame home where authorities say three men were able to grow as much as 100 pounds of marijuana every eight weeks.

"They could grow in 60 days what it would take four and a half months to grow outside," Thompson said. "It's just unbelievable what they've done. It's like something out of a James Bond movie."

Arrested on Wednesday were Brian Gibson and Greg Compton, while a third man, Fred Strunk, was arrested near Gainesville, Fla.

All three are in jail, with Gibson and Compton being held in the Trousdale County Jail. Bail was set for Gibson and Compton at $5 million, while Strunk's was set at $15 million, Thompson said. Local authorities were in Florida on Saturday to return Strunk to Tennessee.

The investigation began about five years ago when a home was built above the cave, but it never appeared anyone lived there, Thompson said.

"The front of the cave used to be a hole that you'd crawl into, and it opened up into a pretty big room that was 20-feet high. They cut the side of the hill so you could just drive right into the cave," he said.

The cave, reached from the house via secret entrances, is said to be about two miles long, but the marijuana operation was located about 100 yards inside. Thompson said the other end of the cave had been blocked to keep trespassers out.

According to the prosecutor, the men told locals they were going to be mining statuary rock.

To harvest the illegal crop, Thompson said the men would hire a half-dozen Hispanic workers in Arizona and drive them to Tennessee. For part of the journey the windows on the van would be covered so the workers did not know where they were.

"They would drive right into the cave and let them out to begin working," Thompson said.

So this “straight boy” who’s using me as an experiment is now getting to me big time…and not in a good way. He’s the one who asked me out and like dude…what the fuck now? I never said he should like fall head over heels. Everything is just going out of control. Am I even making sense? Anyways…fuck it! He expects me to text him when he feels fit…then I do after a week of not speaking to him…He comes back with a I don’t care message…What the fuck is up with that up? Today I get a message with the song Why – Avril Lavigne dedicated to this fucking straight/bi situation that we are in. I don’t even know how to feel…I don’t even have a crush on him…why did I say yes in the first place? Well I did think he was kinda cutish in the beginning now all of that’s like gone. Maybe I’m just immune to love. But that can’t be cause I do love someone and I will do anything for them…So what do I make of the situation? I don’t even know when our 1 month anniversary is...I think it’s passed. But fuck now I’m listening to this damn song and thinking to myself, this guy has fallen in love with me….HELLLLLP…..It’s not suppose to be this way. I love someone else…dearly.

Maybe I should just call it quits! I think it’s over…Yeah it’s definitely OVER!

Later x

NB: The clovers there for a reason. *wink*

Erm? I was suppose to update last night already but before I knew it I was drinking and well..the party started so this was suppose to be the entry…

So a couple of somewhat hours…er days..seconds left for 2006..Grr who cares I’m gonna be sloshed anyways..Won’t remember much…soooo I decided to make some new years resolutions and to er..stick to it..I bet I will..cause it every years resolution.

1. Carry on smoking green…but more this time round.
2. Stick with the “fuck you” attitude.
3. Sleep more. (This one is new…and serious).
4. Do something right.
5. Try to be good. Hence TRY.
6. Become a vegetarian for 5 hours.
7. Save more money.
8. Let my blonde roots grow out.
9. Party more…Lot’s more.
10. Drink less shit coffee and more gooooooooood shit.
11. Get a life.
12. Get a cat, name him DUDE..(Done)
13. Go to Ireland. *wink*
14. Update more…

Can’t think of anything else I gotta run…

Later..
x

It's been a while...erm dunno what to say..ok ok I got it..Let's just not go there...Deal?